woah, its been one month and 14 days since i updated here, nth much in life that makes it colourful for me to update, well no one reads afterall. its juz a space where i say my thoughts then..hur..

lotsa things happened lately, my heart broke, my brain went sot..

exams for the past few days, i broke down. POM was alright, mktg drained out my brain cells, F&B i cudnt remember, so i screwed it, econs was worst, everyth was screwed today. i cried in sch while studying econs.

it tiring both physically and mentally, i dun remember slping for the past week, i was mentally exhausted. my mind was in a blank for econs, i cudnt do, F&B, i juz pratically screwed and did everyth wrong. there goes my A..

i pin high hopes on F&B, i wan an A, i duwan past efforts to go down the drain, high A somemore, haiz, its tiring. i shldnt skip classes and study last min, i promise to be good nxt year.

and ahzi too, seems tt we always get into damn shits together. i hope she's alright, time heals wounds and everyth will be alright as time passes. watch the news, she looks damn damn hagged and tired, still gotta be nice in front of tv, damn heartbroken. we werent there for her whn she needs support, but i'm sure she knows we're always here for her.

we juz wanna be there for her, let her know we're there, cos i know how helpless it can be when u need someone to be there, but there isnt any. i duwan her to be the same as me.. haha but well, not to say tt we're very impt and she needs us, but aiyo.. she did say we're impt larh..hahahhhaha

okays, i'm on the verge of breaking down too, i need sleep.. haha may ahzi and me be well!!! may her be more well than me..

jerr-
11:57 PM

ooh i realise i update monthly! hahah its 14 feb today!:)

five more months to my bdae!!! :D

haven been updating, its kinda cold in here, it doesnt matter, i dun blog for anyone to see, i blog for my own purpose. but well, mayb i need to let some things out. its bugging me for long.

sch has been okay, not that i wanna skip classes, well i dun enjoy skipping classes, but well no one knows or understands. u think i love skipping lecs and tutorials and not knowing wads gg on and gettin a C in the end? i hate Cs, i duwan to get anyth below an B. only As and Bs in my grades, no Cs.

my health has been worst off nowadays, low blood pressure is gettin on my nerves and its gettin lower, hahah majiam like temperature. hur. headaches has been worst, i guess my brain is not functioning well, mayb it'll just die off soon. gastric has been worst too, couldnt really eat alot since that time, i only eat one meal a day, thus leading to almost gastric ulcers. ewwww.

i've slimmed down, hur my shorts are gettin looser,its good isnt it? :)

my heart died, but i'm living on. a dead heart wun stop beating, but it just doesnt have any feelings. it officially died today, 14 feb at 9.48pm.

there's just too many things piling up, i hope i can tide over it. cny nxt week, exams the following week, no Cs, only Bs and As.

i did kinda well for projs this sem, HIGH A for FNB, A for mktg, A for econs, B+ for POM. but my individual marks pulled me down.ha, lousy fella, i aim for A or Z for FNB, A for POM, A for mktg, A for econs although i got a C now. work hard gal.

other things will juz be kept aside, dun let me be alone, i'll start thinkin abt it, they said i have swollen eyes, yea i cried these few nights, i drank too. grrr.

jerr-
11:39 PM